Update - 8:16 AM
Was woken up at about 5 AM to my dry erase board (it's fairly big) falling off my wall, would think the double-sided tape would be strong enough...it's not that heavy (but I guess I wouldn't expect any more from Walmart). I eventually fell back asleep, and it stinks because I was in the middle of a dream (that I no longer remember). I have slight problems with insomnia, but I found that doing a progressive muscle relaxation (where you focus on each limb and consciously relax it) helps a great deal with falling asleep for me.
It's kind of like a hypnosis in which I would tell myself "everywhere my awareness touches will relax". It's strange how much tension I (and probably "we") build up that goes unnoticed--no wonder I'm tired all the time. I notice that awareness in general (even of thoughts) tends to relax whatever it touches automatically (without the affirmation).
That's about it for now, thanks for reading :)
Update - 3:51 PM
Nothing all that exciting happened so far today. I was going to go to this event about race (need to go to at least one event for a class), but I really don't have the time (yes, I know, I have time to blog...but this is like 3+ hours). Bio class was funny. The teacher was talking about how you can find anything in the internet, and then he pointed out this kid that was sleeping in front of a computer (both his arms holding up his head like he was awake...the teacher said "you guys surf the internet right? like that kid in the back was doing before he fell asleep". It must have been so embarrassing for him when he woke up. Then right after, we are talking about eugenics, and the teacher asked "so what kind of people would we sterilize?" and this girl yelled "black people!"...and this black girl in front of me had the *what the hell?* look while shaking her head. Well, that's about it for now, going to do some studying for the french test tomorrow.
Update - 11:10 PM
Nothing all that exciting happened, just did a lot of studying french. Oh, and I drank way too much coffee and black tea (feeling sick off all the caffiene, yuck!). After studying french, I started to think about how the way I think influences so many different things.
I find that, when I think like a Buddhist (so-to-speak), I am mindful and accepting; when I think like an insecure person, my anxiety gets bad; when I think like a confident person, I feel confident. Obviously this all seems obvious, but perhaps we all have habits in the way we think which causes us to feel things we don't want to feel (like insecurities, stress, depression, and so on). Just food for thought.
One thing I want to do more of is think like a person of confidence and acceptance (it appears I have the bad habit of thinking like a person with low self-confidence and a high level of insecurity [certain situations cause a lot of brain-chatter for me]). In my opinion, anxiety (and other emotional issues) isn't so much of a mental disorder as it is a bad cognitive habit.
Was woken up at about 5 AM to my dry erase board (it's fairly big) falling off my wall, would think the double-sided tape would be strong enough...it's not that heavy (but I guess I wouldn't expect any more from Walmart). I eventually fell back asleep, and it stinks because I was in the middle of a dream (that I no longer remember). I have slight problems with insomnia, but I found that doing a progressive muscle relaxation (where you focus on each limb and consciously relax it) helps a great deal with falling asleep for me.
It's kind of like a hypnosis in which I would tell myself "everywhere my awareness touches will relax". It's strange how much tension I (and probably "we") build up that goes unnoticed--no wonder I'm tired all the time. I notice that awareness in general (even of thoughts) tends to relax whatever it touches automatically (without the affirmation).
That's about it for now, thanks for reading :)
Update - 3:51 PM
Nothing all that exciting happened so far today. I was going to go to this event about race (need to go to at least one event for a class), but I really don't have the time (yes, I know, I have time to blog...but this is like 3+ hours). Bio class was funny. The teacher was talking about how you can find anything in the internet, and then he pointed out this kid that was sleeping in front of a computer (both his arms holding up his head like he was awake...the teacher said "you guys surf the internet right? like that kid in the back was doing before he fell asleep". It must have been so embarrassing for him when he woke up. Then right after, we are talking about eugenics, and the teacher asked "so what kind of people would we sterilize?" and this girl yelled "black people!"...and this black girl in front of me had the *what the hell?* look while shaking her head. Well, that's about it for now, going to do some studying for the french test tomorrow.
Update - 11:10 PM
Nothing all that exciting happened, just did a lot of studying french. Oh, and I drank way too much coffee and black tea (feeling sick off all the caffiene, yuck!). After studying french, I started to think about how the way I think influences so many different things.
I find that, when I think like a Buddhist (so-to-speak), I am mindful and accepting; when I think like an insecure person, my anxiety gets bad; when I think like a confident person, I feel confident. Obviously this all seems obvious, but perhaps we all have habits in the way we think which causes us to feel things we don't want to feel (like insecurities, stress, depression, and so on). Just food for thought.
One thing I want to do more of is think like a person of confidence and acceptance (it appears I have the bad habit of thinking like a person with low self-confidence and a high level of insecurity [certain situations cause a lot of brain-chatter for me]). In my opinion, anxiety (and other emotional issues) isn't so much of a mental disorder as it is a bad cognitive habit.
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